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Hello there! I cant believe it has been actually more than 2 weeks since I wrote my last post. Time does really fly huh? Anyway, thanks for those who couldn't really put their nerves down just to wait my new post. I am really thrilled to write this down in the middle of assignment hurdle. These past few weeks just gave me a lot of stress. I got 2 mid exams and 1 presentation in a group of 3 (in which turned out one of my group member didn't showed up). Thanks God everything happened just fine and now I can relax, sit down and share my thoughts for u. He is good indeed =) ha..ha..ha..(evil laugh) loh?

This post will be about .. my spiritual life

SHOCKED? You better be! It sounds so random and actually my first time writing and tell the world openly about this.

Never once I plan about writing spiritual things in this blog. but well this topic just popped out from my mind right away. This is interesting though, considering many of you don't really know about this. 

1. What brought me to Jesus? The obvious answer is my mom! She put my 11 year old self in a youth service and afterwards, I began developing my personal relationship with Him.

2. My spiritual life is filled up with UPs and (I got to admit) MANY MANY DOWNs (as u expected). there are those times when all I wanted to do is just to ran away from Him. He seems like far away when I needed the most. 

but let me tell you. He never been as close! 

Whenever I try to give up on Him, an inner voice of mine (which I believe is the Holy Spirit) tells me to stay still because the best is yet to come. 

and here I am know, still keeping my faith on Him, just because of His goodness. His promise is so real "to catch me even before I fall". 

Lately, I consider myself in the low level of spiritual life. Definitely needed a booster. I know I did things against His will, didn't pray much and skip reading the bible. I keep questioning if He keeps loving me for all those circumstances. But again, He showed me how He still cares for my life. He blessed me and my family in many ways , in which, never crossed in my thought before. For now, I can say that life's good. But guysss, please remind me to this post when I argue about my life in the future somehow! haha

I want to grow more as I know I am still a baby (in context of spiritual life), but a teenager (in actual life). How imbalance is that ha???

One more thing, I secretly wish this in my prayer:

1. That 이 승기 will eventually believe in Him, so that we can strengthen each other and growing together as brothers in Christ (haha! this is my cell group's anthem)..
2. That "someone" (u guys know who) is my perfect match I have been longing for! In bahasa, I keep it as simple as "kalau jodo dekatkanlah, kalau tidak, jodokanlah Ya Tuhan". (seriously!)

just yesterday I feel so blessed with this song. I hope you guys like it as well. I think it has the best wording ever, especially the first paragraph. 

"DI HATI-MU TERUKIR NAMAKU

DI MATA-MU TERLUKIS WAJAHKU

BUKAN KAR’NA KUAT GAGAHKU

NAMUN HANYA KAR’NA KEMURAHAN-MU"

GOD BLESS YOU ALL~

xoxo, 이승 조