Well, some of you might loose weight during exam, but particularly for me, I pilled up some. I was snacking around just to calm down my nerve and worse, I did it more than I could ever remember. I always know I should not have done it but well, as it is always said, flesh is weak. My weight rose up to 61! That was quite a record for me.
I was meant to be fat. I spent most of my time overweighted, but not until I decided to change my own fate. There was time when I looked on myself in the mirror and complained how I could be just as ugly with all those chubby cheeks and swollen belly around :( especially during those days, as we all hit puberty, we want to be attractive and in a stage where we would like to define ourself. Some of us might suffered from personality crisis, in which we didn't feel comfortable of what we were.
As you all expected, I am not satisfied with myself that I was so determined to be what I viewed as an 'ideal me'. I commited to be on diet, reducing the portion of all my meals, not having to eat rice and fatty foods, and withstand myself from snacking around. I tell you, there were lots of pain but it's worth it. I started out with around 63kgs and stopped at 54kgs. After all, I felt so much better and that was one of the best decision I had ever made that changed my life forever.
Too bad I couldn't find my old photos when I was such in a shape of a baloon. But well, for some of you who have been together with me as we grow up together, know exactly how my weight fluctuates throughout the times. But eventhough I am getting fatter nowadays, it still cannot match the fat boy I used to see in the mirror 5 years ago. I am not ashamed to what I was, but definetely, being in a better shape is much better, embracing the future with holding much more confidence in hand.
The road was not always smooth though. There were times when I was just so tempted to give up and accept the fact that I was meant to be fat. There were also times when I stopped at a certain weight and diet was not enough. I almost suffered to what is called bulimia when I forced myself to puke. It was definetely a mistake. The more I puke, the more dependant I am to puking in order to loose some weight. So, no way I'm gonna puke forever.
As a matter of fact, I gradually began to realize a better approach of controlling my weight. It is not quantity that matters, but quality. I started to consume fruits, more vegies (which I barely ate before), and drink more water isntead of sugary stuff. The result may not be as dramatic in the short run, but the effect on long run surprises me.
How my weight fluctuates throughout the time
(the bottom one is the 'ideal me' in my perspective)
I don't encourage you guys to follow my tips. Each person has his own approach of dealing with weight control. What works for me might not work for you. Experimentize yourself !! Mix and match what you understand and see if that works for you. One thing that I want to emphasize here is to never ever torture youself with just having lettuce and drink water or whatever method that seemed to harm you. Our body still needs the energy and nutrition from food. It's totally OK to reduce weight for the sake of health (and in some cases appereances) as long as you know the exit point. Here's the sign, if you were kind of about to be in the air already, then it is the time to stop to reduce your weight, really.
Cheers,
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